“Trusting the Unfathomable”
“With tears streaming down my face, I heard Him gently ask, “Do you believe that I am enough for you? Even if you don’t receive your heart's desire, will you still trust me?”’
Liz Mayfield
Focus: Embracing the mystery of God’s plan and trusting that, even when we don’t understand what He’s doing, He is always at work in our lives.
Key Messages:
Learning to trust God even when we can’t see or understand what He is doing in the moment.
Finding peace in the fact that God is sovereign, and His ways are higher than ours.
Scripture Tie-in: Ecclesiastes 3:11 — “No one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.”
My husband and I got married young, and we were in no hurry to add children to our list of responsibilities. I had a five-year plan after all! Fast forward to when we moved to the DMV in 2019, we had been married for eight years, and I was starting to feel a little anxious about whether we would even be able to have children. After almost two years of tests and tears, I finally broke. I remember sitting on the floor of my closet listening to Brandon Lake sing about the legacy of faith that he was passing down to his children, and I felt a twinge of anger at God. Had I not held on to the seed of faith that my mother had planted in my own heart at a young age? Had I not praised His name and furthered His kingdom enough to deserve this gift? Did He think I couldn’t handle it? I was spiraling into a place of despair and resentment because I didn’t understand. Then, in one of the darkest moments of my life, I felt God sit next to me on the floor of my closet. Maverick City was now singing that we can be content in every circumstance because Jehovah Jireh is more than enough. With tears streaming down my face, I heard Him gently ask, “Do you believe that I am enough for you? Even if you don’t receive your heart's desire, will you still trust me?” My indignation melted into contrition as I realized that He had given me the gift of Himself to sustain me through this unfathomable time in my life. I resolved to trust in His faithfulness extended to a thousand generations—mine and my children included!
It seems like everyone has had at least one time in their life when they have questioned God’s goodness in light of their circumstances. Some of us have had many! Those are the times when it can be hardest to trust Him because His ways are so different than our ways. Looking back now, I’m glad they are! The day my daughter was born, they laid her on my chest, and I thanked Him not just for what He had done, but for how He had done it. He gave me a testimony of His faithfulness to share, and everything she does feels so much sweeter to behold. The mystery of God is part of the joy of loving Him. There is always fresh perspective, new meaning, and deeper insight to be had in His infinite existence. He has proven His worth, and He can be trusted!
